1st day jitters & daycare hell

Howdy everyone!

I apologize for those of you who have been anxiously waiting for this blog. Its been a long and difficult day for Hayden and I. I think I've helped Hayden to overcome most the trauma from this morning.

Hayden and I had our very first days yesterday morning. My first day on the job and Hayden's first day at daycare. My first day was awesome and I was shocked at smooth things went. Boy was I blindsided this morning thinking it was going to be equally as smooth. Hayden's first day of daycare was a bit trying from what I was told. I will not name names but I will simply refer to her as "she" or "her." She informed me the night before I took Hayden into daycare that she follows a very strict schedule. I thought to myself, okay maybe a set schedule will be good for Hayden. WRONG! Oh so freaking wrong!!! When I showed up to pickup Hayden from his first day, not only was he crying, his eyes were swollen from crying all day long. She also told me that he didn't want to follow instructions, line up for lunch, or take a nap at the specified time. Are you freaking kidding me? He's 21 months old. He's not EVEN TWO YEARS OLD!!!!!!!!! Hayden and I went home. I thought long and hard about what she told me. I thought maybe with some time, Hayden would adapt to this change and learn this ridiculous schedule she has set fourth for her kids.

So this morning I wokeup hopeful that maybe, just maybe Hayden would have a better day. *sigh* (deeeeeep sigh) As I'm getting Hayden dressed for the day, I'm explaining to him that Mama has to goto work and he gets to goto daycare and play and learn and have fun. He didn't seem at all as interested as he was the morning of his first day. We get there, I take his shoes off and his jacket and he immediately clings to my leg for dear life. Hayden has never done this. Ever. I ask for a hug and some smoochies and we exchange hugs and ILY's (I love you). So "she" and I follow Hayden and the other four kiddos there to the playroom and Hayden goes right to playing. Then I looked at "her" and mouthed "I'm going to go ahead and go" She nodded. I quietly headed for the door. Hayden knew what just happened and no sooner I turned my back he attacked my leg again. So "she" picks Hayden up to comfort him. I leave. Before I even get to my truck I'm histerically crying. RED FLAG My instinct told me something wasn't right. I get to work and start logging in to my system to get ready for the day. No sooner that I get stuff setup, "she" calls me to tell me Hayden is throwing up and since its been repeated vomitting, I will have to pick him up so none of the other kids get sick. I didn't question it and hung up and informed my boss what was going on. He is a former paramedic and RN so he understood what was really going on. I explained to him that when Hayden gets really upset, he gags, chokes, and throws up. We talked for a few before I left and he assured me they would be fine and to go and see me Monday. I was so upset already for having to leave my SECOND day on the job. I get to the daycare to pickup my precious son. Before I even knock on the door (she operates out of her house) I hear Hayden screaming bloody murder. I have NEVER heard him scream like that. EVER! When she finally comes to the door, I'm scanning the room, looking for Hayden. Around the corner here he comes running to me with his arms in the arm, gasping for air. He was so upset he could hardly catch his breath. I scoop him up to calm him down and let him know its okay. He calms down rather quickly. Then "she" proceeds to tell me something I didn't want to hear. She informs me that since I left (less than an hour had passed since I left) he was crying and screaming histerically and wouldn't follow directions. He wouldn't sit down to eat his breakfast. He hit her arm. (deep down inside, I was like GO HAYDEN!) She said that when her children don't follow instructions, she puts them in time out. Okay that would work for a three year old or older, but a 21 month old who's not use to a set in stone routine after ONE day? How are you going to punish my son for something he does NOT understand? Seriously? REALLY?!?! I asked her for his shot record and the other things "that are to be kept at the daycare" and informed her that Hayden would not be returning, EVER! I was so upset. Livid. Mad. Angry. PISSED OFF!!!!!! My house and her house are literally seperated by four blocks. So it took me a minute and a half to get home. Hayden and I get home, curl up on the couch, cuddle, and cry for a solid hour. He's patting my back and he'll lift his head up to look at me and put his head back on my shoulder. He was so glad that Mama came to his rescue. What melted my heart and topped the day was when he literally wiped away my tears off my face. I fought so hard NOT to cry harder. Sweet sweet boy.

After all that took place this morning, I still have a job and I have childcare lined up for Hayden already. I'm so very thankful for this dear friend that is going to watch and care for Hayden while I work. She lives in CP/L and its way out of the way. But you know, I'd rather go out of my way to have the peace of mind in knowing Hayden is cared for with love and kindness and is with two precious boys who are close in age. A big thank you to YOU! (you know who you are) *wink*

I'm sorry friends, that it has taken me this long to get this blog up and posted. Its been a very emotional day so I haven't felt like jacking with my laptop until this evening. I hope y'all understand. Thank you for all the support and love for those of you who knew what had happened. Love you all to pieces and I'm so thankful for such great people in my life.

X's & O's!

The working mom

After working a few months from home while operating as a stay at home mom (SAHM) and doing invoicing and other tasks involving our business, I'm happy to share my news...

I am going back into the workforce! Our business partner who is also the owner of the house we're renting hired me today as his administrative assistant. I am still in shock but overwhelmed with excitement and nervousness. In all honesty, I'm scared to let him down. I don't want to settle for work at 100%, I'm aiming for 500% - 1000%. I don't want to disappoint him. I hate the learning phase and having to ask questions. Don't get me wrong, I'm absolutely NOT afraid to ask many questions, thats how I learn. I just want to get the hang of things and be successful at it. I have to be there at 9am and more than likely won't get off til closer to 5pm. I'm excited and take great pride in this.

Tomorrow morning Hayden starts daycare for the first time as well. I know he will have so much fun and it will help him with interacting with other kids. I'm so grateful I have a dear friend that lives in the same small town as I do and very fortunate she lives close by. I am so grateful, thank you Miriam!

I am anxious to report tomorrow with a follow-up blog as to how Hayden and I's day went. So stick around and be looking for that update. :)

Thank you everyone for the well wishes, I so very much appreciate them!

Oh my freaking gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This morning started off pretty darn rough. Hayden was up from midnight til about 5:30am. Which gave me a grand total of two hours of sleep. Yea me! A friend of mine I use to work with was suppose to come watch Hayden while Jon and I went to a staff meeting with our landlord for his company. Plans quickly changed. Our friend ended up having to take her husband to the hospital. (still don't know how he's doing, haven't heard) I ended up having to stay home with Hayden while Jon went to the meeting.

The meeting lasted THREE HOURS!!! I thought to myself, surly this can't be good.

Boy howdy was I wrong!!! *insert big cheesy grin*

A quick run down of what they went over....

Our landlord has officially made us, my husband and myself (and his handy man Jon hired on the side) his sole maintenence staff. We are incharge of EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is the greatest blessing we've recieved this year. We also will have our own office in his office building in due time. I will be able to put Hayden in childcare for 5-6 hours a day to provide me much needed concentration and quiet time to speak to owners, tenants, set up appointments to meet with owners about their properties, all of it. This is soooooooooooo exciting!!!!!!!!

I am beside myself, over the moon, jumping for joy, elated!!!!!!!!

Jon and I have been to hell and back, we've hit rock bottom, he's taken several pay cuts to spend more time with our little family and reduce stress and its all paying off right now.

I have always been a firm believer in prayer and by God, HE WAS LISTENING!!!

Thank you sweet Jesus.... we are so very grateful!